Well, I know I didnt post much, or any really, yesterday but I will tell you what happened...
So last night I was dropped off at church to go to a lock in. Before the lock in, parents and other students of the curch performed the 14 Stations of the Cross. Marvelous! It was so touching, and even though I didnt cry, that doesnt mean it wasnt touching. I advise that if you have the time to look into it, take someone, or go alone, to see the 14 stations at your local church. The one line I remember is:
'They bound me, held my arms to the wooden cross. Slowly, they drew the nail into my hand, then with a quick blow to the hand, agony screamed for mercy inside me. Doing the same, they proceeded with my other hand. Pain, once again. Then, they brought up my legs so my feet could be on top of each other, only to draw the nail in and blow. '
Did they get this from the Bible?? It was touching, and more was too come. With the light shining in my eyes, I felt blessed to be there. So, to feel the way I felt, go see it. No your chrch wont do the same, but maybe yours does it more touching! So spread the word, like the Lord wants us to do. And the reward will forever be granted--in Heaven.
In other words...
After the show, Jessie was walking around completely oblivious to the fact that I was right behind her. Finally realizing I was there, I realize I must have looked foolish standing following this girl around who had no idea I was there. Wow. 10-15 minutes later we both walk over to the Pastor's house. Turns out, we actually go to the Sunday School house, not the Pastors. Some Irish thing, they said. Offense? I am unsure, since I am Irish. So far, Jessie barely knew anyone there, until this girl shows up saying, "Duct tape!" Some passion for duct tape. Umm, ok...So her and Jessie get to talking and all of a sudden, they become BFF's! WHAT!?!?! It was like 9:30, so it was too late for my parents to come get me, so I had to deal. All through the night it was like that. I talked to her, she wasnt mean or anything, but she just blocked Jessie from talking to me, and I could see that Jessie couldnt see what was happening. At one point, brace yourselves, she ditched me for an hour. Usually people ditch when they dont like the person. But she gladly ran out. You know how that made me feel? Like crap. Crap. Crap. Did she appologize? NO! She seem's to think nothing is wrong. Well, there is something wrong. Thats just sick. Realizing that I was alone for over 30 min. I walked into the hall only to see them on Youtube! Clicking and watching video's!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Boy, I was ticked. I walked over and said nothing. Just sat, feeling excluded. You'd think that since in homeroom no one, no exaggeration, talks to me. No one. Do you know that feeling? Like your a new kid, or adult, and coming in and all eyes are everted, as if you carry disease. No, I have no disease. Do I diserve eyes to look away. To feel like crap, walking into school? No. That is why I want home-schooling. That is why I dont want to live here. Or in Georgia period. Not because of the fact that no one talks to me in homeroom, but the fact that I have lived here too long. I think it's time to start over. Mom wants to move, too. But everyone else feels we should stay put. And as far as the people at school think, I doubt they would notice I am gone. So now I wait...
Today Nana and Papa are coming over. It is a rush of cleaning and swiping off dust which collected over the time. I must go, but I will update soon. Post, comment, or follow!!
Aislinn
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