3'rd Week of School

Three weeks down!
I can't really complain...well, yes I can.
School is boring.
I give up.
I just want summer to come back. Can I sleep until then?
I don't have any new friends. My mom says I should try and talk to more people, but honestly I've tried.
High school isn't what it looks like on tv.
One thing that's different from middle school, is that there isn't as much drama! With the biggest freshman class in the history of the school (and it's not a very big school) that means it's very hard to keep up with everyone. Especially like me, who doesn't know more than 5 people, if that! But in all seriousness, there is no drama.
Except at lunch.
The other day me & Lizzette were sitting with my friends Alyssa, Cecile, and Murphy, when one of Lizzette's friends sat next to her. They began to talk, and he (I don't know his name) asked her if she liked sitting with the 4 of us. She said, "No, I don't like them." So he says, "Then why do you sit with them?" and she replied, "Because I like Aislinn, I just don't like the rest of them."
 Now, I know she didn't care for one girl, but she never once told me she didn't like sitting with the others! And I don't know why! She still doesn't know that I know.
But there's one problem.
Being the third week of school, and high school for God's sakes, I don't want to get caught up in this. I am NOT getting involved in drama. (I say this but then watch me get pulled in.)
I became friends with Lizzette first. Before I met Alyssa, Lizzette was my only friend. So, I feel like if I picked to sit with Lizzette, her being my first friend and all, that I would then lose 3 new friends! But, if I sat with the 3 girls, then Lizzette might not be my friend anymore.
The other day (right after this happened, the following day) Lizzette and I sat with some of her friends, who didn't include me. Who didn't talk to me. Who ignored me.
Is that what she felt like?
She saw me looking for the 3 of my other friends, and even said "You can go sit with them if you want!" But I didn't see them, nor did I wanna be rude.
So, unlike two days ago, for the past 2 days I have been eating with my 3 other friends. When I see Lizzette, she looks lonely. I don't know if it's because she ate alone, or if she was waiting for me. If either of those were the case, she'd know where to find me.
But I like hanging out with Alyssa, Cec, and Murphy! So, why do I even need to pick who to eat with! Why do I care so much about hurting others when I should be worried about myself!?
Oh well. I'm learning, right?
On another note, I have had college prep for the last few days. Like, the other day I had to get up in front of my School Success class and say a goal of mine I want to complete.
I chose to say my goal of "What I plan on doing before High School ends" I decided to change it, so instead of before High School ends, it became when High School is over. It was hilarious.
"Aislinn. Come present your goal." Said my teacher. I stood up and picked up my paper with my goal and reasons why and stepped up in front of the class. Unlike most times publicly speaking, I wasn't nervous. I confidently walked up to the front of the class, maybe it's because I know what I wanted and I think it's a pretty cool goal. "I'm going to be doing goal number 2." I said, as I began to read, "When I graduate high school I want to have enough money and good enough grades to be able to afford to live in the UK, preferrably the London area." I looked up and one girl who sits at my table spoke up, "AH! The UK! I wanna go there so bad, take me with you!" I smiled and my teacher said, "No. She just said she will have enough money for her. Not you." The smile dropped off the girls face as soon as he spoke. (omg hahahaha) Then one boy, in the back of the class, spoke up. "So, how do you plan on getting all this money?" I said, "By working?" "So, you'd work anywhere, like McDonalds?" And this is where I got wicked confident and sassy, saying, "McDonalds won't get me to Cambridge, now will it?" And he shut up. Along with the rest of the class. Who was silent earlier, but now was focused on me. "Cambridge? What?" Said the boy, and people looked at each other. No one knows what that college is. "Yes, that's where I'm going to college." I said, and looked at the teacher to see if he thought that was a good goal or not. He propped back in his chair and said 'wow'. "Cambridge.That's good. So you plan on living there?" I nodded with a big smile, because this is something I really want. "Why? Why don't you want to live in America?" This caught me off guard, but it wasn't like I'd never thought of that before. So I answered honestly. "I, uh, I just wanna..I just wanna leave. I don't want to live here." And, even though no one was speaking, people began to pay more attention to me. I'm sure some people were even thinking Doesn't want to live in America?! She's crazy! But I'm not. I want this, and know that I want to go there. Then, randomely, the teacher began to fake cry and said, "Do we not fit your standards?!" And I said, "No." and walked to my seat. "Land of the free! Home of the brave! Do you wanna give all that up?" He yelled, not rudely, but more like a way to silence the class but to get my attention again. Just like before, I honestly said, "Yes." And I meant it.

So that was my week!
Bless,
Aislinn
xx